Saturday, September 13, 2008

David Foster Wallace: gone

David Foster Wallace, author, short story writer, essayist and teacher, found dead at age 46 in his home in Claremont. Killed himself.

Damn it.

Here's an excerpt from the commencement speech he gave at Kenyon College in 2005:

...the so-called real world will not discourage you from operating on your default settings, because the so-called real world of men and money and power hums merrily along in a pool of fear and anger and frustration and craving and worship of self. Our own present culture has harnessed these forces in ways that have yielded extraordinary wealth and comfort and personal freedom. The freedom all to be lords of our tiny skull-sized kingdoms, alone at the center of all creation. This kind of freedom has much to recommend it. But of course there are all different kinds of freedom, and the kind that is most precious you will not hear much talk about much in the great outside world of wanting and achieving and [unintelligible -- sounds like "displayal"]. The really important kind of freedom involves attention and awareness and discipline, and being able truly to care about other people and to sacrifice for them over and over in myriad petty, unsexy ways every day.

That is real freedom. That is being educated, and understanding how to think. The alternative is unconsciousness, the default setting, the rat race, the constant gnawing sense of having had, and lost, some infinite thing.

I know that this stuff probably doesn't sound fun and breezy or grandly inspirational the way a commencement speech is supposed to sound. What it is, as far as I can see, is the capital-T Truth, with a whole lot of rhetorical niceties stripped away. You are, of course, free to think of it whatever you wish. But please don't just dismiss it as just some finger-wagging Dr. Laura sermon. None of this stuff is really about morality or religion or dogma or big fancy questions of life after death.

The capital-T Truth is about life BEFORE death.

It is about the real value of a real education, which has almost nothing to do with knowledge, and everything to do with simple awareness; awareness of what is so real and essential, so hidden in plain sight all around us, all the time, that we have to keep reminding ourselves over and over:

"This is water."

"This is water."

It is unimaginably hard to do this, to stay conscious and alive in the adult world day in and day out. Which means yet another grand cliché turns out to be true: your education really IS the job of a lifetime. And it commences: now.

I wish you way more than luck.


To read the rest, click here.

What a Tangled Web He Weaveth—the latest crisis

Oh! What a tangled web he weaves
The Goo, Hurrah!, himself deceives!
—With apologies to Walter Scott
It’s been a wild week in the district, in some corners anyway. Last week, on Wednesday, Chancellor Raghu Mathur announced that his ballyhooed “consultant,” who was scheduled to meet with all sorts of groups at both colleges over two weeks re "decision-making processes," had reported to him, after one day on the job!, that decision-making seems to be just fine and dandy! And so he (Mathur) decided to discontinue the consultation.

I forwarded Mathur’s email to the consultant, Bill Vega, who responded by stating that, no, it was his (Vega’s) decision to discontinue. During his one-day visit, Vega signaled that he might pull the plug. He also made pretty clear that he didn’t think much of the Chancellor’s involvement in college decisions. (It was evident that he had reached that assessment before he got to the 2:00 p.m. “open forum” that I attended. That is, Vega had reached that assessment before he encountered any faculty. Prior to the open forum, Vega met with classified and administrators.)

The logic of Mathur’s email was manifestly absurd: since (according to Mathur) Vega had found decision-making at IVC to be hunky-dory, it follows that decision-making throughout the district—including at Saddleback College—is also hunky-dory! So why continue with the consultation?

(And if Vega had indeed found decision-making hunk-doritude, shouldn't we include that judgment in the Accred reports? Why would Mathur not urge the focus groups to include this alleged finding? Why would he prevent Vega from writing the report?)

I’m told that Saddleback’s Accreditation Focus Group has been on this episode like white on rice, owing, no doubt, to its manifest relevance to our governance difficulties (not to mention our "fear and despair" difficulties) here in the good old SOCCCD. During Vega’s day at the district, it became clear that the college community was not alone in its abject foggitude about the nature of this consultation. Who had hired Vega? To whom would he report? How would Vega’s report connect with the two colleges’ accreditation reports? Nobody seemed to know, including Vega.

This kind of "communication" problem is, um, relevant to the Accred's stated concerns, doncha think?

And then, right after Vega bailed (last Wednesday), Mathur put out a memo containing two BIG LIES:

• That, according to the estimable Dr. Vega, our decision-making processes were in swell shape
• That, given this happy assessment, Mathur had naturally decided on discontinuance of Vega's consultation

Again, that the second is a lie is pretty clear, given (1) Vega’s having hinted that he might pull the plug already last Tuesday and (2) Vega’s having written to me that he, not Mathur, had recommended discontinuance.

That the first is a lie is less certain, I suppose. But there can be little doubt that, last Tuesday, Vega had expressed himself in a manner clearly implying that he did not approve of (in particular) Mathur’s kind of involvement in college decision-making. Those who met with Vega will testify to this.

From what I’ve been told, it appears that the trustees, too, were left largely in the dark about Mathur’s curious consultation process. Many of us guess that, for trustees, the following perception is unavoidable: that Mathur instigated this process in an attempt to lay blame for the colleges/district’s difficulties, not at Mathur’s doorstep (as per the two Accreditation report drafts), but at that of faculty and the board. Anyone who knows Mathur knows that he is exactly the kind of guy who would assume that a fellow Chancellor pal (like Vega) would spin things to help out a colleague. It's what pals do!

If that is what Mathur was thinking, he was very much mistaken.

So the upshot of Mathur’s “consultation” gambit is this: he pursued a crassly self-serving process that blew up in his face. Further, from the perspective of many members of the two Accreditation focus groups, Mathur’s gambit can only be viewed as an eleventh-hour and wholly inappropriate attempt to sneak a new element into the Accreditation reports due on October 15. (Indeed, during his visit, Vega revealed his belief that his report was to be included in those reports. He was visibly horrified to discover that faculty had not been consulted about his hire.)

CRISIS:

So this brings us to our latest crisis. Will pressure be exerted to prevent mention of this sorry episode in the Accreditation reports?

While contemplating that, please do consider this factoid: that Mathur’s latest gambit has so angered members of the two college communities that it will be impossible for the district to hide it from the ACCJC. 

That is, efforts at suppression will likely have the opposite of the desired effect.

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Have you read the editorial in the latest issue of the Lariat? Check it out: here. Also, check out the Lariat's online poll of presidential candidates. 54% of voters say they'll vote for McCain: See. Also: UCI editorial: the clueless generation?

Friday, September 12, 2008

Holga Goo and Tom by Jason



My friend Jason took these really cool photos yesterday during and after the IVC 9-11 ceremony, using his Holga camera.

With the help of his Chinese camera, he captured the weirdness, the darkness of the dismal enterprise.


A detail.

It's Snowing!

"Blizzard of Lies," by Paul Krugman in today's NY Times:

Did you hear about how Barack Obama wants to have sex education in kindergarten, and called Sarah Palin a pig? Did you hear about how Ms. Palin told Congress, “Thanks, but no thanks” when it wanted to buy Alaska a Bridge to Nowhere?

These stories have two things in common: they’re all claims recently made by the McCain campaign — and they’re all out-and-out lies...

But I can’t think of any precedent, at least in America, for the blizzard of lies since the Republican convention. The Bush campaign’s lies in 2000 were artful — you needed some grasp of arithmetic to realize that you were being conned. This year, however, the McCain campaign keeps making assertions that anyone with an Internet connection can disprove in a minute, and repeating these assertions over and over again...


Click here for the rest: Paul Krugman, Blizzard of Lies.

Thursday, September 11, 2008

9-11 Anniversary Ceremony, Irvine Valley College


Part 1: to see the video, click on the arrow.

OC Sheriff urges vigilance and determination at Irvine 9/11 commemoration:

Orange County Sheriff Sandra Hutchens today delivered a message of vigilance and determination at Irvine Valley College's 9/11 Commemoration Ceremony, reflecting on a day she said would remain etched in the country's collective memory.

Standing on a sparse, darkly lit stage dominated by a large American flag backdrop and a single, brightly lit commemorative wreath, Hutchins spoke of the moment that she learned of the 9/11 attacks, in the morning hours after a night spent supervising a Los Angeles SWAT team serving high risk warrants.

"We must acknowledge that [terrorists] exist and their purpose is to eliminate our freedom and our democratic way of life," Hutchens said. "We will not let them prevail."

Several other speakers echoed Hutchens comments on balancing the threat of terrorism without compromising one's freedom. Irvine Police Chief David L. Maggard Jr. compared the impact of 9/11 on current generations to the impact of the Pearl Harbor bombing on an earlier generation.

"We woke as a nation knowing our lives would never be the same," Maggard said. "We realized the world is not as large as it seemed."

The college's ceremony was attended by a crowd of nearly 100, including a number of local and county leaders. This is the sixth year the college has commemorated 9/11….

Along with the solemn words and remembrances were spirited moments of patriotism, including performances of "America the Beautiful" and "God Bless America" by Irvine Valley College Choral Director Matthew Tresler, which bookended the speeches. During the closing moments of "God Bless America," Tresler invited the crowd to join him, their voices filling the college's performing arts center….

County honors those who died on 9-11:

[AND AT SADDLEBACK COLLEGE:]

At Saddleback College, campus Police Chief Harry Parmer, a Marine Corps veteran, led a ceremony that included speeches and the presentation of a memorial wreath.

"Our first responders showed true bravery and heroism on 9/11, and many made the ultimate sacrifice in their pursuit to save the lives of their fellow citizens," paramedic student Adam Miller, who served in Iraq, told the crowd.

"As a student in Saddleback College's paramedic program, it is an honor to follow in their footsteps so I too can help those in their greatest hours of need."

From Wednesday’s OC Register:

Irvine Valley College entices students with pipeless organ: Digital instrument with grandiose look, feel and sound of the real thing will make its debut Sunday.

Rebel Girl's Poetry Corner: For the historical ache

Rebel Girl isn't up to much these days, hence the light posting. (Some of you have asked.) She is sunk instead in a place, a soul kitchen of sorts, where she keeps measuring what all has been done for what result and, well, the sum distresses her, suggestive as it is of cool, conscious betrayal, pervasive corruption and a jaunty disregard. She is certain that there must be another way to weigh and measure, to count and figure but she hasn't found it. 2 plus 2 continues to equal four.

So, more poetry until her own words come back. This one is by Stephen Dunn.

To a Terrorist

For the historical ache, the ache passed down
which finds its circumstance and becomes
the present ache, I offer this poem

without hope, knowing there's nothing,
not even revenge, which alleviates
a life like yours. I offer it as one

might offer his father's ashes
to the wind, a gesture
when there's nothing else to do.

Still, I must say to you:
I hate your good reasons.
I hate the hatefulness that makes you fall

in love with death, your own included.
Perhaps you're hating me now,
I who own my own house

and live in a country so muscular,
so smug, it thinks its terror is meant
only to mean well, and to protect.

Christ turned his singular cheek,
one man's holiness another's absurdity.
Like you, the rest of us obey the sting,

the surge. I'm just speaking out loud
to cancel my silence. Consider it an old impulse,
doomed to become mere words.

The first poet probably spoke to thunder
and, for a while, believed
thunder had an ear and a choice.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Those "clueless" liberals


Bob Herbert’s column the other day (Hold Your Heads Up) was a reality check for liberals and conservatives:

Troglodytes on the right are no respecters of reality. They say the most absurd things and hardly anyone calls them on it. Evolution? Don’t you believe it. Global warming? A figment of the liberal imagination.

Why liberals don’t stand up to this garbage, I don’t know. Without the extraordinary contribution of liberals — from the mightiest presidents to the most unheralded protesters and organizers — the United States would be a much, much worse place than it is today.


There would be absolutely no chance that a Barack Obama or Hillary Clinton or Sarah Palin could make a credible run for the highest offices in the land. Conservatives would never have allowed it.

Civil rights? Women’s rights? Liberals went to the mat for them time and again against ugly, vicious and sometimes murderous opposition. They should be forever proud.


The liberals who [as Mitt Romney would have it] didn’t have a clue gave us Social Security and unemployment insurance, both of which were contained in the original Social Security Act. Most conservatives despised the very idea of this assistance to struggling Americans. Republicans hated Social Security…. “In the procedural motions that preceded final passage,” wrote historian Jean Edward Smith in his biography, “FDR,” “House Republicans voted almost unanimously against Social Security. But when the final up-or-down vote came on April 19 [1935], fewer than half were prepared to go on record against.”




Pictures: Saddleback College Library, yesterday

Roy's obituary in LA Times and Register: "we were lucky to have you while we did"

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